i wanted to blog but forgot about what i wanted to blog about.

so yeah.

this blog post is about forgetting the blog post i wanted to blog.

omg i totally want to move house now.

my mom says that when we move we can get a new oven.

why can't we get a new oven now?!

and i want to bake cupcakes.

:(

i'm addicted to super smash bros. brawl now.

that's not good.

damnit.

carrot juice is the bane of my existence.

after sending joel home yesterday i decided to drive to the old location of rosyth.

the last time i was there, i was barely in my teens. now i'm actually driving.

it was pretty dark at night, but it seemed like nothing much had changed. the nostalgia...

i remember the little garden where someone told me it was haunted.

i remember the grassy area where i made friends with people i didn't know because every day we were all there waiting for our parents to come fetch us home.

i remember the bus-bay.

i remember the basketball court.

i even drove down past parry primary. it's still there!

the field... the canteen...

and i went past a house.

i don't even know if she's living there anymore.

my mom tells me that i'm a depressing person.

i never look on the bright side.

i don't?!


ook. got my stitches out today anyway.

and went to the market place. mom's crazy over organic stuff now.

and i've got organic honey teddy graham crackers (yum), organic cheese crackers (yumyum) and organic chocolate (yumyumyum).

i'm happy. the simple things in life...

hey! the previous blog post hit 400. which started in... 5 or 6 years ago. wow.


anyway. my blue button died. damnit.

ARGH!! i need a new wireless wii les paul.

don't ask me why, but i hate carrot juice.

i really hate it.

i like carrots. no matter boiled, steamed, stir-fried, cook in soup, but i totally abhor carrot juice.


makes my stomach queasy after drinking it.

don't tell me that you've added other fruits into the juice. i still hate it.

sometimes, we'll get the feeling that some thing's missing in our life.

that there's an aching hole waiting to be filled.

by what?


i wished i had the answer.

i'm never removing my wisdom teeth again.

wait a minute.


i don't have any left....



and i keep thinking i'm getting cheated on my battery life, but realize how long i've spent online already...

well. it's evening now.

my surgery was over by ten plus.

it was pretty cool. i went to sleep, and when i woke up, it was over.

apparently there was quite a long of blood, seeing that my mouth and teeth was covered by blood.

my upper jaw was totally numb, including my lip and chin. it was pretty fun playing with it. but i hard to take care not to bite too much.

now the numbness gone, and i think i'm still high on painkillers. so the pain isn't really getting to me yet. just feel this soreness at the back of my mouth.

the mouth rinse they gave me is disgusting. blackcurrant juice can't even get rid of the taste.

lol.

the dentist said i had to be on a soft diet. i told my mom i wanted campbell's soup. she was like... go organic instead. organic soup cost like 5 bucks per pack, as compared to 75 cents (is it still 75 cents) per can of campbell..

but well. recent events in my family has caused my mom to be really wary of preservatives and stuff. you know, we have this machine that distills our water with heat or something, then at the bottom of the tank there's this weird deposit that really stink. we have all the organic wheat rice for food now and stuff.

not that these stuff doesn't taste good, but junk taste better. lol.

so after my surgery we went to the marketplace in paragon and just stared at the organic shelves. got a few packs of soup, soba, miso, juice. thought of getting some jam too, but i don't really like jam.

maybe in the next few days i'll start complaining about the pain. the dentist said the gums were going to start swelling around sunday.

not looking forward to it.

well... today was stupid.

my parents wanted to go to batam really really early today, so they booked the 8.30 ferry. and we usually take the 9.30 one.

so i had to get up at like 6... which is more than an hour earlier than my usual waking time. and it was still dark out there.

and blah blah blah. we arrived at batam, where it was raining.

the taxi driver told us that it had been raining the entire morning, and we were like, "wow! we've hardly seen that happen in batam before!"

and i mean it. i've been going to that island since i was about 9 or 10, and i hardly even experienced rain. even drizzling was rare. my dad, who goes to batam at least once a week since about ten years ago, even commented that such rain was uncommon.

so, on our way to the shipyard, we had to turn back. because of FLOODING. apparently, the flood was so bad it reached all the way up to the chest. yeah.

the taxi dropped us off at waterfront city, where we waited for the rain to stop, as well as some of my dad's employees. and we spent like nearly 3 hours there. we reached batam at 9.30, and we left that place at 12 plus, maybe one. what a time waster.

so, on our way to the shipyard, we saw the part that remained flooded. i wasn't really sure how high that pool of water was, but when you were sitting on a motorcycle, the water reached all the way up to the thighs. there was a huge truck stuck in the middle of the pool. then we saw a motorcycle trying to drive through the flood. his engine was flooded, and then it gave out. he had to walk through the entire flood pushing the motorcycle. two more trucks drove past (they were the 4WD kind) and of course succeeded. then we saw other motorcycles deciding to try. it was pretty hilarious. they had like big shit-eating grins on their faces, and were all driving through the flood, with a huge group of audience looking at them. some succeeded, some failed.
there were some which drove through nearly the entire pool, but because of a slight jam up ahead, they had to stop in the pool and that caused their engines to give out.

that was like the only highlight of the day. i didn't even get to eat lunch.

and we could only take the 4.50pm ferry back, due to the stupid rain.

and we usually took the 3.30pm ferry.

i wish i never had to go batam again.



and my mom doesn't want to give me a one week mc like what the dentist advised after my wisdom teeth extraction tomorrow. has she heard how painful it was going to be??

she should go extract hers, and continue working after that.

she actually wanted me to work tomorrow, after my surgery. hah! and got scolded by my dad.

i love my dad. lol. even he knew that it was going to be bloody painful.

and for me... i'm scared. i've never undergone a surgery before, i've never undergone anaesthetia...

and i hate needles. and the feeling of not knowing what is going to happen to me. and that i'll wake up in the middle of the operation.

it's cold today.

really cold.

i was sniffling the entire day.


anyway... i was complaining about windows vista the entire past year.

if i recall correctly, it's nearly exactly a year ago.


guess what! now i have new things to complain about.

like how the market hates mac users. lol.

stupid windows messenger.

i'm never going to drink water again.

look at all the sophisticated equipments around us to keep our water 'clean'.

isn't our water drinkable the way it is already?

damnit.

all the equipment makes me sick.

not as if we're all not going to die anyway.

and people in the older days didn't need such stuff to survive.

sometimes, i get really confused.

i have no idea what you're saying.

i get hints.

but. i get red herrings too. are they truly red herrings, or not?

is it all a figment of your imagination, or is it mine?


i wish we were still talking.

i wish we could clear this up.

i miss you.

thanks.

for making me feel worse.



sometimes, i really hate you.

fuck all the "OMFG!! results are going to be out tomorrow/later/today!!!!" messages.

i don't care.

lol at ongying for complaining about our sleeping habits.

well. i'll snore when i'm damn tired. i think.

and i only sleep when i'm damn tired. haha.

i told my mom that results are going to be out on friday, and i need to RELAX.

so now i'm doing very little stuff and slacking all day.

wish i had a wii here.