stop thinking you're damn smart. you're not. fuck you.


ihateyouihateyouihateyouihateyouihateyouihateyouihateyouihateyou

hi choonyee!

yep. missing chiangmai. now its like what the hell am i going to do with the rest of my time. oops. maybe i should be studying. or doing homework. haha.


time seems to fly really fast. soon enough, its gonna be christmas. then new year. then the NIGHTMARE. fuck. not looking forward to it.

where's the pause button for life when you need it?




the most heartbreaking thing in life is never telling your loved ones you loved them.

i read a story which happened like that. A loved B and was always trying to get B to reciprocate. B thought the love wasn't deserved, and refused to have anything to do with A. When A was dying, B finally realized that love for A did exist. But right after B realized so, A died, not giving B a chance to express the love.

i nearly died with the ending. and cried. haha. i think books are the most effective things in making me cry. and the probelm is i love reading this kind of killer endings. what am i gonna do??!!!

i'm back.


chiangmai....

wasn;t as horrible as i dreaded it to be. in fact, there are many moments i wouldn't have gave up. if you were to give me a choice to go to either korea or chiangmai, i'll probably still choose chiangmai.


experienced many different things there. bathing in icy water EVERYDAY. working at the worksite. living with no electricity and no flush for the toilet...


its been a memorable experience. wouldn't give it up.






as i compare this trip with ongying's trip to cambodia, i feel LUCKY. their's sounded like torture camp, while ours sounded like we went there to help, but still lived in luxury. of course, more luxurious then them, and not the singapore type of luxury.


i want to scratch.

we make choices all the time in life.

why does it seem that i always make the wrong ones?